biceps muscle tendon

It sucks knowing you could have everything you ever wanted...
but you screwed up your chances for it by being a fucking moron...

i always wanted someone to love me.. Someone i could love in return...
and over the years ive had so many chances but something always went wrong.. Sometimes my fault.. Usualy just because they didnt really want me...


but i could have had it for real this time.. And i was so busy being afraid that i let it all get away...
i was afraid id get hurt again.. Or that id just end up getting used... And in the end me being as cautious as i was.. Caused it...

i wake up every morning with a memory of you etched in my mind..
and the longer i think about it.. The more painful it because.. Overshadowed by someone else..

no matter what i do.. There will always be someone who can do better.. There will always be someone who i just cant compete with...
i wish that i had done what i needed to do when i had the chance.,.. And now that its too late.. I have nothing but regret...

no happy memories.. All my memories just make me realize how much of a fool i was...
every touch... Every kiss... Every stupid little argument.. All those things that made us who we were together.. All they do is make a fool of me now.. Taunting me and rubbing in my face that theres nothing left for me to do...

i just want something.. Something to hold on to right now to let me know that its all okay.. That everything will be okay...
my friends arnt really the emotionaly comforting type.. The only one i ever could turn to for that kind of comfort was you.. And.. It seems wrong some how to seek comfort for pain thats caused by this from you..

so i have to cry my tears alone.. Like i have since my best friend left
and all i really want to say is...
"i love you so much.. Please just come home..."

but.. What home is there to come back to.. What reason would you have to come back...

as they say.. You dont know what you have till its gone.. Cliched i know but anyone whos ever felt this way knows its true...




still holding onto the hope that one day ill be good enough for someone...
Dusty


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